Ponderous

One of my favorite things is forgetting about something. Delayed surprise gratification

Today I decided to buy a pepsi with my meal, but then just put it in my pocket. About an hour ago i’m like, whoa! a pepsi! I do it with other things, like I’ll buy a twix, eat one, put the other one away. Later i’ll be like… man that was a good twix, bam! I can have another one.

But its got to be more than just candy. I do it with ebay clothes too. I think… ooh this looks good, and its cheap, ‘order’. Then a few weeks later when it gets to me across the ocean I get this parcel in the mail. Oh ya! awesome!

Also, on a larger scale still. Its a bit harder. I mean to get something large and substantial, it will cost more than a few bucks. Serious investment needs to be made. I gave one of my favorite people some money so she could get a visa for her job in europe. I don’t hear as much from her as I’d like, and I’m not even sure what will happen later, but I expect to also recieve a positive report as a return on my investment. I don’t know what it is, so its also going to be a surprise.

Still, I think this type of ‘later’ mentality is really prudent. I’ve done it in the past with putting the effort in studying, not really knowing if it was worth it until I get that ‘decent enough’ mark back. Or putting the effort into getting a degree… I don’t know what will happen with that. Too many times I have things where I know what the return will be, like going to a week of camp will be awesome always. So then when there are things that might be more of a surprise or unknown, how many times do I ignore it and let the opportunity pass?

Of course not every time is a big hit. Sometimes the chocolate bar gets forgotten and leaves a melted gooey mess.