I don’t know what it is about freedom that we like. But I like it.

well, today I do.

Freedom is related to control, and power, but not so simply.
It might be stated that it is to be free to do what we want.
But in fact, positions of power are some of the least free.
Prime Ministers and Presidents can so rarely do what they want.
To be in control of a household is not a freedom, but a service.

I think of another occupation that I’d say is free, but perhaps isn’t.

In the past, cowboys would roam the plains.
They would have long journeys and tasks that could take days.
Perhaps they’d be with another
Perhaps they’d be alone.
But they’d often be one with their horse and little else.
Singing songs to themselves, or writing poems.
If you’ve ever met a cowboy, you might get a sense.
Get a taste of what this life does to them.
Tasks get done, and helping hands are lended.
Keep a cool head, while digging deep.
It’s the opposite of highschool, the opposite of The Hills.
They are free from those worries, those pressures.

As am I. I am not playing the game, yet I am not really in control.
I simply am. Free with my horse. Which for me is.. 3up.ca?.
Aging quickly, and developing a deep, yet steady emotional nature.
The funning thing about being free, and cowboys will too agree.
That it’s definitely not the easy life.
It isn’t all smiles.
But to give up that freedom sorta seems foreign, and uncomfortable.

I do not believe I will have this freedom forever.
I know that when it is gone, I will miss it.
But this is not my aim, to be a nomad with my horse.
There is a purpose at the end of the destination.
Some freedoms to lose, in exchange for responsibility.
Some callouses to soften, in exchange for tenderness.
And while I’m young, it seems fitting to be free.
When I’m older, I really hope that it isn’t about me.
At that point, I hope to be happy enough without freedom,
Until the time, when our kids start their family,
When I will I hope to be free again…
rather, we will be free.

Unknown future wife, I really hope you’re ok and free. I can’t really be there for you right now, but I wish we could be free together, instead of free apart. I hope we meet before I’m old. Maybe you could tell me your name so I don’t have to call you unknown future wife.