My productivity has waxed and waned. I remember my dad telling me about moons that have phases where they wax and wane. I am not quite sure which is which, but wane means to fade?

I want to be productive, in hours when I dont have to be productive. So how do I push even when nobody is there to push?

1. Music, new music is waaay to distracting, unless its ambient wordless techno, I can’t handle this ROCK n POP cast even though its quite good. I need something with a good tempo, but not too stimulating to become foreground.

2. Convince yourself you should. I sometimes think laying down might be nicer. I know its not really what I should do, but my brain and body aren’t convinced. I sorta stab ‘conventional wisdom’ all the time, so when ‘conventional wisdom’ tells me to water a plant, that doesn’t necessarily mean I am compelled. I have to be convinced its a good idea. Like how my plant has tips that are turning a bit crispy :-( Tim needs some water, I am convinced. I need to work, right now I’m convinced.

3. Schedule realistic work amounts. If I really wanted to amp up, I _could_ work for like 8 hours straight, but thats not realistic. I have breaks, talk to this person at this time, play a short game here at that time. It sorta works as long as I keep things in their boxes. Without work scheduling and fun scheduling, time gets lost.

4. Mental health therapy. If you’re stresed or tired or sad or angry, you often need to take care of that first. Well, maybe the paying job comes first, mental health second, and then ‘fun’ job third. It can’t be pushed to the pits of the stomach, people aren’t wired that way.

5. Short term reachable goals. This is huge. I’ve been told this a billion times, but if you dont feel progress you will quit. I can not relate to anyone that works at something for more than five years. Lab scientists with their chemical testing can work so hard, with no results! How! That is foreign to me, and most people. I write todo lists all over the place, short quick things.

6. Have hope! :-) Things can change, your goals can be met, you can do it.
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