I found boredom
I think a lot of people get bored. They might be sitting at home on their computer, telling me they are bored. But I am doing the same thing and I am not bored.
Also, maybe I am waiting in line at the store, people around me get impatient, perhaps they are bored. Again, I am not bored (music helps).
I don’t necessarily think music is the interesting part for me. My mind just functions in a way that I can entertain myself in various situations. I might look forward to something ending, or starting, but in the meantime I can usually fill my thoughts with something. Perhaps the next blog topic to write or what i’m going to set my facebook status too, hah.
However, I did find out how to get bored. Waiting for someone for an unknown period of time is BORING. If I can foresee the delay, i can brain wander, but if it could end at anymoment and action commences, I have to remain in this state of preparedness. I hate that. I need to learn not to hate that because I will almost certainly have my life intertwined to another and there will be times when our timings are not perfect and will require waiting.
Or maybe I will die alone, but not of boredom!
hah.
Boredom does seem to be a choice of attitude. I think I tend suffer from an anxious form of boredom (which isn’t good) – a form that doesn’t have trouble finding things to do but rather is discontented/annoyed with the current situation. If I was stuck waiting in traffic or waiting in line at some government office, I would not feel boredom but rather I’d feel agitated – like I’m wasting precious time that could be used to do 100 other seemingly more important things. /psychoanalysis