A lot of things have momentum. A diet has momentum. A habit has momentum. A relationship has momentum. A passion has momentum. An exercise routine has momentum.

If you start something that you can’t keep up, or continue, you will halt that momentum. You will feel the jerk back, it could be hard. How do you stop a rolling boulder? If you manage to stop it, do you think its easy to start again? The boulder grows, the weight increases. It’s not the same as when you started.

I think its best to start many things when you don’t need to stop. This saves the problem of stopping, and it saves the problem of weirdness when you have stopped, longing for it again? Trying to recall or reminisce. I think its best to just carry things out the first time.

Explore your path, goal, fairly and fully.
Start something when you are ready to see it through.
Redefine what something is, so it doesn’t end – or -
End something without starting it again.
Peace is not found in the herky-jerky.


It is really hard for me to get into programming at home. It takes a lot of commitment and discipline. I had been committed before with a group and expectations but now I don’t have that. I stop and start and it is not very productive.

With drawing I can stop and start but its still there, I do not put as much importance or skill development on it. I am committed to being a casual artist which is a very light commitment.
In regards to food I am somewhat committed to eating well, this is often a gradual shift for the better or worse so I am glad I have some stability there even if it wanes a bit.

In regards to dating, this is perhaps the biggest reason (ignoring social inadequacies and fears) I’ve been single. If I can’t see it through, I don’t want to have to endure through the hardship of something that has a deadline. No timebombs for me thankyou.

I definitely think this applies to physical relationships too. That is a boulder to be reckoned with.

In regards to people, I can’t help all circumstances, sometimes people go. I like catching up with people, but its not the same. To catch up only to stop again is not the same as keeping it. However with different expectations I don’t need to stop. Although thats not necessarily happy, it is at least more steady and easier to see what I have, what I am doing, where I am going. Step-by-step is progress.

This career thing is something that I don’t know how to see through. I don’t expect a long road with any one job so my expectations are set accordingly.