optimusoriginalCarrying on from the last blog, I realize that making the best use of time is having the proper mood or attitude in the present scenario. I think it could sound phony if I needed to transform, but I’ve realized part of being mature is to be in control over feelings.


There is a time to be contemplative and a time to let loose and carefree. I don’t know the trick to just switch from one to the other, but the sensory stimuli in the setting or having a warm-up routine of sorts I think is key. I can come into my room, turn lights low and look at my plain walls and blank screen to type into, or I can go into a lively room with lots of people doing some crazy activity and both environments will spur different emotions even if I didn’t initially feel that way. Today I got into team fortress 2, a video game, at work today and it totally brought back my competitiveness, and lost myself in the game, it was a great moment to remember that I do have fun hobbies and have the blood rush a bit even if I didn’t really feel that way when I started the game up.

People might consider art a waste of time, or music to be merely for amusement, but no, they can be tools for productivity or recovery. To go through life listening to the same type of music, or the same visuals I believe restricts mood change, and leads to stagnation. Sure there are some people who can thrive on monotony and consistency but my life is more dynamic and my opportunities are in vastly different directions so why not spur proper adaptations with external help?

I think perhaps the biggest thing I miss from old home are the scenarios which trigger the real conversations, coffee/tea dates with friends or just hanging out in the kitchen when my parents would come home or be preparing meals. These people are still reachable, and sure the physical contact audible voices and visual smiles are nice, but the other half of what I miss are these avenues where I am comfortable to feel a certain way and have input into my life. I still have no answer to this, but I can widen the avenues (long distance voice or text) that I do have until I’ve started new ones here. My life is really quite peachy anyway so I don’t need major venting in the foreseeable future. Thank God.