I feel like I’m running the race with a compass out while everyone else is sorta just runnin for the nearest clearing and tryin to figure it out later. Also I’m in a forest and I am hacking all obstacles or protrusions that are blocking my path. I could go around or change directions a little and not have to bother being quite so anti-nature but I am actively combating the world scenario instead of changing my course to allow for the way things are laid in front of me.

If there is a full blown tree in my path, and I can see it directly blocking my intended goal, do i just divert my path and come back later? Or do i pull out my axe and start swinging?

I am not disappointed with my strategy, and sometimes wish I had followed it even to more perfection, but its just a bit demoralizing when people have gone so far while I have done a lot of work? I truly believe that people who do go off yonder will have tons more hacking and chopping and burning to do, but a lot of what I see are people nearby to me just frolicking and dodging and turning and rolling while I am trudging along through a swamp.

I will translate to english later.